Maybe if I ate psychedelic drugs I
would see the bookcase differently
even pull an odd one off and
read it aloud
the sun on my skin
maybe come down and sleep a while
then wake up
quit my job
cut my hair
change my diet
sell my car
I might even open the window
that hasn’t been opened
since moving in
or volunteer
help underprivileged folks
animals
recycling
all this speculation but all
I can think about is
how my semen landed
on Meghan’s mom’s tattoo
searching and finding is not
worth the effort when you end
up in the same spot every time
fuck a miracle
just give me the shot
cancel the maybe
forbid the need